Update and Return
Dear Friends of the POP-UP School,
Thank you all for your well wishes (for both me and my mom) - this community (are we a community?) is a kind of anchor in my life right now. When I think of the question “what do you do?” I think of the combination of 1) running this farm/Alderlore and 2) hosting this campus. It is wondrous in the strange way of Magik-Realite and the cosmic causal field, that my illness, my mom’s emergency and the backdrop against we participate (in the linimal web of players) have all “turned on a dime” as it were. I am wondering if the planets in your solar system (your assemblage) have shifted lately? There definitely seems to have been a quickening of the patterns that shape us in this “time between worlds” but this turning — this timely time — is different. It is like living in the moment when a great gyre that has been accelerating, begins to change course. At first you only perceiving the slowing-downess, like when you turn a big fan from intake to exhaust, without shutting it off first. Some people only see the slowing down-ness, and miss the reversal. What I am feeling is the reversal. Maybe we can talk about this intuition I have, punctuated as it were by significant signs (that for many are hidden in plain sight) in recent days during Sunday’s SOLUT session.
The Core Self Sessions begin (in earnest!) this Saturday. Interestingly, because my mom’s primary problem is progressive dementia, I am watching the permutations of self-other-world at this stage in her life. She is “slowly by leaps and bounds” returning to magical thinking. [Writing this just now, it occurs to me that this is the phrase that also captures the reversal processs I wrote about above, that it is proceeding slowly by leaps and bounds”] I believe this is a time that demands a certain vigilance and precision. Therefore, the updates I shared at the end of the last course session, about expanding into a new cohort, has now been put aside (this is the message I got from my illness — we can talk about that on Sunday!). Instead, I am focused on this notion of vigilance, multiple perspectival perception (like we can function as the individual facets of an insects’ eye) and precision. I was particularly struck by this video while web-surfing when I was ill
In my work I emphasize signs over symbols — and I want to adopt the Dragonfly as a sign of the times.
When I was a kid, my father took me down to the “boulevard” where he dredged up a couple of handfuls of sludge from the pond and filled a jar with it. Then we went home and he instructed me to watch! Over the next few weeks I noticed these ugly worm-like bugs filling the jar. He removed the bugs (which he called perch bugs, because they were traditionally used to fish for perch) and put them in another jar with fresh water from the pond. He instructed me to “just watch!” Eventually those ugly bugs emerged as dragon and damsel flies! Much to my delight. This timing, this rhythm, where nothing seems to be happening for most of that time and then, slowly by leaps and bounds, something marvelous emerges! This I think is our rhythm now.
What does this have to do with the core self? This entire shift is a shift in the organization of self-other-world. A shift into the realm of Magik-Realite and the apparition mystique that portends it.
Just watch! What do you see?